Dating, healing

So, you date someone for two years and your life gets turned upside down. Now, you break up with them and start the process of up righting. That was my experience. I was fortunate enough to have God put someone in my life that helped with the process. Dating made me become a person that I was not, trying to fill an idea in my head. My actions were my fault, and I am scarred by them. I can, however, find myself life again. But only if I let go of what I have done and allow God to forgive me. I am working on it, I think I have made a significant breakthrough, though. I have never really had such a good friend who believed the same things as I do. Until now. An instant message discussion late into the night made me realize that I can't continue living my life as I had been living it. I knew this all along, but until then I didn't realize that someone that I could agree with thought so as well. I have had a lot of good advice in the past six or eight months, but sometimes it is hard to take good advice if you don't particularly like the source. God provided me with a good friend, who promptly turned around and gave me the same good advice. Amazing how He works like that. Hopefully this time I will be able to follow through and not wimp out. Only in His strength can I get pulled out of this muck I have thrown myself into. I just want to follow him.